Well, I fell off the wagon with maintaining this blog. I regret nothing and have no regular audience to apologise to so that's good. Perhaps someone will read what I'm about to write and glean some useful stuff from it. I was drifting off to sleep, telling myself to remember what I am about to type but I forced myself awake knowing I would forget come the morrow. Or sumthin. Onwards.
The straw that broke the camel's back is important but could it be said that it is less important than the first or middling straw in the heap? Without any one straw the apparent effect of their mass would not be seen. Singularly each straw is infinitely important in the crippling of an unfortunate unguligrade but not as important- yet equally as important- as the the gathering of straw en masse.
My point. Every experience and moment is the most important you will ever experience. Without each reaction and action that serves to tweak your personality (or routine brain chemistry or neurological structure or conditioning; however you prefer to romanticise and twist semantics to describe how you view what is your self) ever so slightly you would not be at current suffering from or enjoying your state of internal affairs.
This does not mean that each experience should be greeted with the paralysing anxiety of an irrevocable decision; an everyday Sophie's choice; it just means that "important" is not as important as we once thought. Indeed, near infinite possibility of subtly diverging paths borders on a sort of post-scarcity economy of importance where the value of things is not skewed by their rarity. They just are what they are and that's up to you to decide.
Keeping your head, stoicism or, as I think best describes it: mindfulness are what I consider healthy reactions to most issues of towering importance. There's a sort of dualism between what will be will be and what will be is what you do. You just have to walk that line. It's not a thin, treacherous line with existential voids full of solipsists and nihlists and disembodied Che Guevara's telling you about how wicked-sick the first year of their philosophy degree has been; no, rather it is a calm way to conduct oneself with dignity and contentment. Not to say that you should always "settle" for an uncomfortable reality if that is an assumption that can be made from what I've written. To reply to that I pose the question ""should" you never settle for a situation? And how much dirtiness have you attached to the concept of "settling"?" I babble... Uncontrollably so.
I think some people consider this to be very New Age and unrelateable. If that is so then disregard it, at least for now, because the observation I made in the first few paragraphs is very much separate to the advice contained in the close and it is my opinion that the first few paragraphs count for a great deal more than the latter. I suppose if you get it you get it. I suppose. As my mother might say, I am more than likely speaking in riddles. (SOMEONE SAY PSYCHOANALYSIS!? YOU KIDS CRACK ME UP!)
Josh.
